It has been said by Outspoken mp Dennis skinner that David Cameron has done more to divide this nation than any other prime minister in history. Certainly this could be seen as true on the debating of brexit and the in campaign. And with a time now, that we all should be united over the corruption of the Tories, now we have another force trying to divide our nation.

We are now at a stage when far right groups in the country are now jumping on the bandwagon if dividing the country. One group in particular stating that they denounce democratically elected Muslims as occupiers who are trying to take over our political system.
Considering the definition of occupier is and I quote
A member of a group that takes POSSESSION of a country by force. Now as seen as they were elected in I’m not sure if that actually constitutes as force…………..I might be wrong
They also stated that people should stand by for a flurry of direct operations with threats of violence and harassment. Seem strange doesn’t it that these groups seem to be aimed at a better Britain but don’t seem geared toward outing a corrupt government. Threatening politicians in their personal life which in turn creates fear and intimidation and feeling the already raging fire of racism. I say again with the use of fear, but doesn’t the government do this, Didn’t David Cameron do this over the Third World War claim the n brexit.

So what makes these groups better than an already over corrupt governments? Is it really in face making a better britain? I question these tactics.
When this group in particular is mentioned

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We glance opened mouthed and say how appalled we are at their past history and actions, that said you wouldn’t associate this group with Christians so why should be tarnish honest Muslims with this nasty group. We also hear comments from Islamic groups like this below and they are seen as terrorists…….need I comment further on that?

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Far right groups are creating the divide as is the government, taking to the streets in threatening behaviour but this is what the government want. We are now taking our eyes of the prize and this is distracting us from what is really out there.
Tarnishing a religion with the same views as the minority in my view is wrong. This kind of behaviour should worry us and worry us a lot. The far right groups against Muslims are insinuating that we are being over run and our country is being ‘occupied’ by Muslims.

It was stated on a Facebook page of a far right group that by 2050 this country will be FULL of Muslims

Now bear in mind that as of 2011 the percentage of Muslims for the entire population stood at 4.5 %
However take London for example, In some parts of London half the population of the city are now Muslims.

But, take a look at this graphic

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The numbers look quite high and they could to some appear worrying, But if you do the math, over the past 25 years this equates to

1,576 Muslims per week either through birth of immigration

Which is a figure that could appear to be less worrying, if you are in fact worrying. So Muslims are not exactly taking over!

Now go back to the Paris terrorist attacks and a far right group held a national conference in Sheffield where they passed a policy to ban the religion Islam within the United Kingdom and all its associated practices.
There is evidence that the KKK is practicing in the uk with news reports documenting the name Christian identity. So should we be having a conference to ban this religion as well as its associated practices. Everyone in this country has and should have to right to demonstrate. But when it starts to get less than peaceful it becomes a problem, And I’m talking about both sides.

There has been at the beginning of the year a backlash against what some Muslims see as islamaphobic stigmatism. Many have campaigned against the governments ‘prevent’ agenda which calls on communities to report suspected terrorist sympathisers. But we have the right to know if there are extremists dangerous to the society we live in.
In my view Muslims may not be doing themselves any favours by going against this, why wouldn’t you out someone of this mindset. Former equalities chief Trevor Phillips sparked outrage some time ago by stating:

Some Muslims will ALWAYS remain apart saying ‘it may be that they see the world differently to the rest of us

Quite a bold statement, but I know I see the world differently to some we all do don’t we? I don’t support or condone any extremists views of any kind no matter which group they come from. But also worries me is we are taking our eye of the prize.

These groups on both side are so pre occupied with fighting against each other we are forgetting the corrupt government and fishing out the extremists for these groups and holding them up for what they Are.
We should be trying to end terrorism in all its outlets and again the includes the governments as well. Not just members of factions like Isis.


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FULFILL YOUR PASSION not what the others say!

Sometimes you have to do what is your passion. I started this blog just to see if I could do it, to see if I could write and someone would read. To see if people were interested in what I had to say.

My TRUE passion? It’s the world around us, it’s trying to make the world better for my children. At the moment I see a lot wrong with governments, wars, and how we are being treated as a nation, and it’s wrong. But, who is going to listen to little old me?

I haven’t posted on this blog for a while, I have been busy filming, videoing and trying to build a presence on you tube and getting my views out there. There are 1000s of blogs out there and I fell victim to the norm! I don’t like corporate giants and I don’t like what they stand for. I fell into the rut of:

Try this
Review this
publicize this and get more views and followers

And it just wasn’t me, i tried to do the same with you-tube some time ago, and i stopped as i just wasn’t happy with the content it was not who i was. There are more beauty bloggers out there than you can shake a stick at, are they REALLY passionate about the next big lipstick or eye shadow or is it for free stuff and popularity marks. I realize i may get shot down for these comments but i have to start saying what i feel. There is one YOUTUBER that i watch avidly although not for a few weeks now CASEY NIESTAT. He said “if you are doing what other people are doing you are doing it wrong”. And i think that is so true, BRAINFOOD almost became my baby, but was it really who i am? I look at it now and i say NO it really wasn’t!

I am so sorry to the people that have followed me on here with the content that  have produced so far, but i HAVE to produce content that i am passionate about and that is the world around us. I am far from what society would deem ACADEMIC but i am self educated in consciousness and the world. An now is the time that i have to produce that content as that is a what i am passionate about, someone nsaid to me once produce things that make you happy even if no one sees it.

Below is an “Episode” of my youtube channel show, and i am looking to change the name of this blog and th direction it is going. I am sorry if you still expect the content to be what i was but  HAVE TO do what makes ME happy and thanks to all those so far that have read my posts and subscribed to this blog and i hope you ill stay with me.

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THE RED CUP: The holy grail of bull@#%t

Seriously what is all the fuss about? It just doesn’t make sense,even stars on Twitter have come out complaining. Is it a great marketing coo maybe? It begins to make me think that we are missing the point to everything that is going on around us. It has been said that the removal of Christmas designs from the cup is a sign that Starbucks hate Jesus? “Hello, I’m over here everybody look this way I’m waving the religious card”. Religion is a great argument starter and whilst I’m sure it’s not intentional the point is there to be made. You could ask yourselves is it a ploy to in fact buy more substantial reusable travel cups with designs at a later date? Who knows but then again who cares? Surely what matters more is the nectar that is contained within, that is the purpose you went into to the power that is  Starbucks.

Many christens have come out on Twitter stating” I don’t care, it is after all a cup you throw away after 30 mins”. Or is it? Are there many amongst us that have a collection of throw away cups with designs on only then to be cast into the abyss when you move house, thus forgetting all about complaint a year before they may have started reinstating the designs. I like to look at this way the baristas have taken time out to train to make me the perfect coffee, I take gratitude in that. Am I going to pay attention to what’s on the cup? No! All over town soon you will see people with coffee stains down their chest, lifting the cup up to see the design whilst it is still full only to be met with a niagra fall like leakage of which you can’t stop once it starts. Starbucks make good coffee and you get what you pay for, would you pay the same if they just gave you a empty cup only to be met with ” well it has a design on this one sir”. No you want the coffee you want to savour the coffee, so the Coffee is now the important thing so does the design still matter? Rest assured people will still be shouting and complaining across the counter ” WHERE IS MY DESIGN I MUST HAVE MY DESIGN”

I relish the day when I am in a Starbucks when th barista leans across the counter and quietly says……..

Don’t worry sir, wake up and smell the coffee
It is goooooooooooood!!!!!!!

Be Amazing XxX

TRAGEDY: It can make you or break you, guess what it did to me? (Part 1)

I want to share something with you, something I don’t often talk about not in great detail anyway. I have decided to pen this in the hope that someone can seek solace from it. That if you are stuck in a certain thinking bubble and finding it hard to get out of………..I’m here to tell you that there IS light at the end of the tunnel and it does get better.I’m going to tell you what happened first, direct and to the point and then together we can go from there. Together we can instil in your thinking that if you are down you can pull yourself out of it.

27th of November 1994 was not an ordinary day it was the day my mum died the day my mum was taken, how? She was killed, she was killed at the hands of my dad in a way that I can only describe as horrific but straight forward. Her life was ended as a result of a hammer attack, maybe a moment of madness I don’t know. I did go to pentonville prison once to ask him and I didn’t really get what I would call a straight answer. “You can only take so much” so much of what was my thinking, sure everyone argues but do we have the motivation or the inclination to “do our partner in” which apparently is what we he told the police. Fair enough I guess he handed himself in, resigned to the fact I hope that he had done wrong, that he had extinguished a life the life of our mum.

It was a Sunday the day after I had been on the piss with my mates, one of my mates came to our house and stayed. We walked in the door and mum was sleeping on the sofa tv still on, boys being boys we woke her up the mate that came to stay mum had known since he was a toddler. We both woke up in the morning and the house was empty blissful, peace and quiet for once lol. Little did I know at the time that the night before would be the last time I saw my mum alive, I assumed mum and my sister went out for the day shopping I later found out that they did. This was the days before mobile phones were commonplace you had to have plenty of money to own one, so contacting someone in an emergency you had no chance. So both me and my mate went out and we was out all day completely unaware of the events taking place that day. We used to live in Romford but started our life in the east end so all the people I know well, they were all back there and that is where I was. It wasn’t until my drive home that I knew something was wrong, I had gone past my sisters house and literally just as I drove by there were police going into the door. It only occurred to me sometime after that how it was perfect timing, as I was driving by that’s the exact moment when the police got there. Almost as though I was meant to see that preparing me for what’s to come.

I turned into our street which was almost like a cul-de-sac I say almost because it was in the shape of a T rather than like a spoon effect. You come up a straight road then turn left towards our house and that’s when I saw it. Police everywhere and I mean everywhere, it’s funny where we get information from and I got mine from all the cop shows I used to watch. Because when I saw the police tape across our drive that is when it hit me, the feeling that something is very wrong. Not just someone in trouble but something very wrong that and the fact there was a copper standing slap bang in the door way. It was almost as though the tape wasn’t there as I walked up the drive to the front door only to be stopped by the copper asking who I was. After arguing with him saying it was my house and coming close to maybe putting him on his backside I was ushered to a car, a small whipper snapper detective in tow or that’s how he looked at the time now thinking back (bearing in mind I was only 21 at the time).

I sat down on the passenger seat door open and he knelt down on the pavement in front of me, ” Antony (now it was only my mum that used to call me that other members of the family lazily using Ant) there has been an incident in your house between you mum and dad, I’m really sorry but your mum has passed away”. The world that I had known had gone everything had gone everything that was either planned or thoughts that were being worked towards…….had gone. It’s almost like being surrounded by friends but them friends are in fact dreams and ambitions and slowly they walk away waving simply cause you told them to piss off there’s no point in them being here no more. At this point I still had no idea as to what happened it was only down to the mere fact of me badgering the detective and I guess you could say getting aggressive with him that he told me. ” we don’t know the exact details at the moment Antony , your dad is at your sisters, from what he has said to our officers there with him now he has admitted to killing your mum”

And so it was my already crumbling world had been grinded into a powder with no hope of a ‘big bang’ and starting a whole new world and being able to pull myself together………..what do I do now? We were taken to the police station I was separate to everyone else as was my sister, me spending hours and hours with THE detective who said it was ok to call him ‘bunny’. Much talking was done about trvial things really but the one thing that kept drumming away in my mind was ‘I wanted to know how he did it’ why? I have no idea needless to say for hours bunny said he couldn’t tell me until after a moment away from the room giving me the chance to make a few private calls he came back with the permission to tell me what I needed to know……….13 blows to the head with a blunt instrument…”after again badgering him he declared it was with a hammer. That was the final blow to me as well, the final blow to any motivation I thought I had left.

People up and down the country deal with this kind of thing, little did I know how it would affect me. How it would change my life forever and how that started a chain of self destruction for a number of years……………….


Thank you so much to everyone that has followed me so far and is interested ( I hope) in what I have to say and think. I have decided to set up a dedicated page to this s blog to filter out and concentrate all my thoughts.

If you have not already worked out…..I am a thinker a deep thinker I am very self motivated and like to think I motivate others to action and to thinking in the various groups that I am a member of.  I would be honoured deeply if anyone on Facebook could like the page and together we can achieve great things with great minds alike. You can access the page via the icon on the header or click the link below.


thank you

be amazing xx

The event that shaped me: you don’t have to be a victim!

Over the next few……well I don’t actually know how long it’s going to take. I want to share with you what made me into the person I am, what made me realise that life is precious. Take every opportunity that comes along, I want to share with you what allows me to think independently and not worry about what other people are doing.

It was-or should I say is-an event that I never had any counseling for I just got on and dealt with it. I want to share it NOW for the simple reason is this:

Everyday I hear that people are struggling people are not being able to achieve what they want in their life. I can even go as far as saying people complaining about the little things when they should know that there is always someone worse of than them. That’s how I got through what I did, alright it took a while but I got there. I was going to film a video series but then I thought, would anyone watch it would they get the same kind of motivation from it. Not everyone has a YouTube account or the desire to add yet another social media site to their ever growing list. So this is going to be the outlet of my story, everything is going to be shared with you in the hope that-as Bob proctor says-“you don’t sweat the small stuff”. If it makes you, allows you to take stock of everything that has happened to you in a negative way then the purpose of me sharing what happened has served its purpose. A minute amount may (you think) will be tedious but most of it will need to be focused on to get to the end, the end that will hopefully spur you into action.

I will post the first part soon…….The title: WHAT MADE ME.

Thank you for following me so far and I look forward to making you think.

Be amazing x


I don’t disagree with the influx of ‘immigrants’ as such we all need help, if we want to create another and better lives for ourselves who can blame us. If you want abundance for your children you would do anything wouldn’t you? The thing I actually disagree with is the practise that we are being kept in the dark I believe we are not being told the full story.

I posted here yesterday that a video I shared on FB had been removed and it did slightly trouble me as to why information like this is being discarded. Well it has appeared again, half way through the process of me putting together some verses that I had going round in my head so, rightly or wrongly I included it in my latest concoction of pictures and muses. Now whether or not I will get blown apart for this I don’t know or whether or not it will be taken down I don’t have a clue. I like to think I can’t be reprimanded for merely having opinions, opinions I like to share.

None the less here it is for you to mull over, digress on what is contained therein I do apologise if you don’t agree but as I have said they are merely opinions of mine. Some of us have the same but unfortunately some of us care not to share them through the fear of repercussions. In for a penny in for pound my mum always taught me.


Above is my latest video…….feel free to comment, subscribe and share. I thank you for watching and send love and thanks to all the people who have followed me so far.  Xx


When I first heard this I was stunned and the fact that it was live on TV was shocking. It brings to light the state of gun laws and the fact (in my view) something more needs to be done.

My heart goes to the families involved thinking about the fact they could have been watching their siblings on TV and then this happens. There are a few ‘theories’ flying about that this is a hoax, now I am usually the first to come up with a conspiracy but about this I find hard to believe. There would have to be a lot of people involved. So I say no, but if so why? That said something does need to be done with regards to gun laws, and not just in the U.S. but all over the world.

If one person has a gun and one person doesn’t you will never achieve peace! Both minds have to think alike, weapons are used as a form of control and an extension of extreme bullying. They will not ‘ultimately’ achieve peace, certainly not in the long wrong.

Below is a video on my channel of what I think feel free to comment, share and discuss, thank you for watching, be safe and love to you all.   Xxxx

WHY DO PEOPLE CARRY GUNS? guns, guns and more guns lend me your armour

A camera man and a reporter aimed at by a gunman

Once a friend and co worker he shot at them close

This was a callous act but one that he chose

He then killed himself and set himself free

Free from the justice he would have to face

Full version video coming soon, thanks for watching and reading

Horse poo or Dog poo?……………… The choice is yours………


Not a pretty site is it? Yet when I went on my run this morning as usual along the canal path, this is what I was met with. Well one of them anyway, a mess left from the larger variety of animal.

Why is it acceptable to see Horse poo all over our roads, paths and I have even seen it on pavements!  Yet when it comes to dog poo (and rightly so) we have to clear it up, bag it, carry it around with us until we find a bin. In the meantime our dogs are no doubt laughing to them selves in their own mind that we take part in this habit as, RECREATION!

I have yet not had the pleasure of treading in horse poo, and I would not like to. It is a great deal larger mess than our canine friends leave behind, nevertheless it is still annoying.

Animal manure contains many viruses, bacteria and parasites. Some of these are more important than others and I would identify Clostridium tetani as being the most serious of these pathogens. As the name suggests that is the bacterium that causes tetanus and it is commonly found in soil that is contaminated with manure.      Irishhealth.com

We are all aware that dog poo too carries diseases, but we clean that up don’t we? Why therefore then is it acceptable to leave horse poo behind considering you can still catch stuff from it?

Me I have no idea, what I do know is that I probably have not seen the last of this stuff on my run, and until some one runs behind the horse and picks it up in a bucket, like the good old days,we will continue to see this stuff.

Laugh about it, say ‘ahhhh’ and mutter the statement “that’s good for the roses that”